My loss..

Hi lilbaby, it's your mummy posting about you!
It has been really great to have you in my life, i really love you alooot.
I know you're mischevious and playful, i tried all ways to train you not to get up on beds, guess i didn't do it well.
I failed totally as a mummy.

Everything came so sudden..
I was so worried bout you when Granny called me and say that she couldn't find you.
My heartbeat increases rapidly, afraid something that i've always thought it would to come.
I rushed home and look around and i was so happy that i didn't see you on the floor.
Little did i know, when i give a thorough search, i saw you there.. Lying down..
When i touch you, your body were totally hardened..

That second, i really don't know what can i do, lost.
All i know is to cry. It's a kind of heartache baby..
Next moment, it came to tell me, something came to tell me that you've already left me.
I couldn't accept..

I was devastated..

Baby, R.I.P
Mummy loves you, you can come back anytime you want, i'll be here. I promise.